Binges

Thats my major issue.
I'm getting better, sort of.
A couple months ago I lost 20 pounds, and then i gained back about 10 pounds of it. Because I couldn't help but stuff my face everyday when i got home from school. I don't know why I did it, I wasn't hungery and I didn't even WANT the food, but I couldn't control it as I shoved the food in so quickly I hardly tasted it. In a single afternoon "snack" onetime i ate: 2 apple muffins, 4 taquitos, a hamburger, two kinds of ice cream, cheese and crackers, chips and dip, steak and 2 Hershey's bars. Then I'd eat dinner when my parents got home. I don't know how I fit it all in. How was there room in me for all of that?!
And just when I'm supposed to be restricting more than ever, I'm falling back into my old habbits of eating, and eating and ... eating. It's not out of comfort, or fear, it's hardly even boredom. It's just the need to chew? Maybe? I can't even explain it.
And I tell myself I won't eat but it seems like every time I look down at my hands there's food in them and I don't even remember getting it, or eating it.
I need help.
I NEED Ana.