Restart the jumpstart man its hard to be a failure.
August....September....October....November...December. And here we are.
136, on a good day.
I went up up up on the scale to 146 in Octoberish I believe. And to the ears of some deaf god thank you for helping me get it back down, but I'm not done praying yet!
Hell of a ways to go.
Got down to 133 (100% empty though) like 2 days ago, after eating and what not I'm somewhere around the 136s/137s
Goal: Stayin empty till Santa gets here, 5 days? No bigggie. Always easier said than done though. Lets see if I can manage staying empty for the rest of this HORRIBLE binge day.
Saturday, December 18, 2010
Friday, August 6, 2010
Post Secret
Some post cards from my favorite website, postsecret.blogspot.com, I would highly recomend checking it out. It gives you a mind set like no other. This post cards in particular are from the archive and shockingly are the only two about ana and being thin. We should try to change that and send in a secret of our own!
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
From the Morning
A day once dawned, and it was beautiful
A day once dawned from the ground
Then the night she fell
And the air was beautiful
The night she fell all around.
So look see the days
The endless coloured ways
And go play the game that you learned
From the morning.
And now we rise
And we are everywhere
And now we rise from the ground
And see she flies
And she is everywhere
See she flies all around
So look see the sights
The endless summer nights
And go play the game that you leared
From the morning.
A day once dawned from the ground
Then the night she fell
And the air was beautiful
The night she fell all around.
So look see the days
The endless coloured ways
And go play the game that you learned
From the morning.
And now we rise
And we are everywhere
And now we rise from the ground
And see she flies
And she is everywhere
See she flies all around
So look see the sights
The endless summer nights
And go play the game that you leared
From the morning.
3 Day Plan
Day One
Breakfast:
Black coffee or tea with Equal or Sweet & Low
1/2 grapefruit or juice
1 slice toast with 1 tablespoon peanut butter
Lunch:
1/2 cup of tuna
1 slice toast
Dinner:
3 ounces of lean meat or chicken (any kind)
1 cup green beans
1 apple
Day Two
Breakfast:
Black coffee or tea with Equal or Sweet & Low
1 egg
1/2 banana
1 slice toast
Lunch:
1 cup cottage cheese or tuna
8 regular saltine crackers
Dinner:
2 beef frankfurters
1 cup broccoli or cabbage
1/2 banana
Day Three
Breakfast:
Black coffee or tea with Equal or Sweet & Low
5 regular saltine crackers
1 oz. cheddar cheese
1 apple
Lunch:
1 boiled egg
1 slice toast
Dinner:
1 cup tuna
1 cup cauliflower
1 cup melon
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Back on Track
Icecream - 220(give or take a few)
Work out for 40 minutes, calories burned: 540
fingeres crossed i stay strong
Work out for 40 minutes, calories burned: 540
fingeres crossed i stay strong
Monday, July 5, 2010
FML
Its called friends and food, way to much food. ABC went down the drain because I've been with friends 24/7 the past week and they love them some junk food, and as much as I HATE to eat it, my cravings turn into slumber party monster mode and fork it all in.
I go to the doctors next week too,I'll have to weigh in. How embarrasing.
F.M.L.
I've probably gained again. I'm terrified to get on the scale.
I want to cut it all off. All.of.it.
I go to the doctors next week too,I'll have to weigh in. How embarrasing.
F.M.L.
I've probably gained again. I'm terrified to get on the scale.
I want to cut it all off. All.of.it.
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Mind Tricks
Water can make you think and feel full. But nobody wants to sit there and drink and drink boring water. Skip the Splenda and spare yourself the 5 calories (cause hey, it eventually adds up, 6 splenda packets a day is 30 calories a day, every day for a week is 210 calories a week! When you could have had a pretty pretty 0).
So make water drinking fun and get a spiffy water bottle like my new one! This is a Camelbak waterbottle that I got at REI but they have them at most sports stores and online.
It has this weird straw-like top but you have to bite it and suck without tipping it over to drink. I love it so much that I'll drink 3 bottels so quickly. Then I'm so full it hurts! And it was only on water.
ABC
Fasted for most of the days with only a couple nibbels of food some I'm trowing out the numbers for days 3, 4, 5, and 6.
WorkOut Time!
One hour workouts:
Boxing w/ punching bag= 400
Walking = 300
Jogging = 420
Rollerblading = 660
Swimming Breast Stroke = 590
Running (5.5 mph) = 1062
Rowing Machine = 600
High Impact Aerobics = 413
Moderate Impact Volleyball = 318
Moderate Tennis = 381
Stairclimbing = 381
Soccer = 508
Horseback Riding (Trotting)= 419
Dancing = 362
Moderate Basketball = 635
Body Fat Calculator:
www.livestrong.com/tools/body-fat-calculator/
Mine: 16.something
Boxing w/ punching bag= 400
Walking = 300
Jogging = 420
Rollerblading = 660
Swimming Breast Stroke = 590
Running (5.5 mph) = 1062
Rowing Machine = 600
High Impact Aerobics = 413
Moderate Impact Volleyball = 318
Moderate Tennis = 381
Stairclimbing = 381
Soccer = 508
Horseback Riding (Trotting)= 419
Dancing = 362
Moderate Basketball = 635
Body Fat Calculator:
www.livestrong.com/tools/body-fat-calculator/
Mine: 16.something
Friday, June 25, 2010
Inspirational Quotes
If I eat anything, I'll eat everything, so I eat nothing.
Eat less, weigh less.
I want to walk in the snow and leave no footprints.
I want the light to hit me and there be no shadow.
Those bones don't mean I'm to skinny, they mean there's more to loose.
Starving is not pain, it's the cure.
Blessed are the starving, for they show us how to not want.
Giving into food shows weakness, be strong and you will be better than everyone else.
A flat stomach is nice, but a concave one is perfect.
Do not give up on what you want most for something you want in the moment.
Only I can let myself fail.
The difference between want and need is self control.
An ordinary girl, an ordinary waist- but ordnary just won't do today.
An imperfect body reflects and imperfect person.
Don't eat anything that you'll regret in an hour.
Eat to live, don't live to eat.
What's in the lips today is on the hips tomorrow.
Remeasure, reweight try harder.
Eat less, weigh less.
I want to walk in the snow and leave no footprints.
I want the light to hit me and there be no shadow.
Those bones don't mean I'm to skinny, they mean there's more to loose.
Starving is not pain, it's the cure.
Blessed are the starving, for they show us how to not want.
Giving into food shows weakness, be strong and you will be better than everyone else.
A flat stomach is nice, but a concave one is perfect.
Do not give up on what you want most for something you want in the moment.
Only I can let myself fail.
The difference between want and need is self control.
An ordinary girl, an ordinary waist- but ordnary just won't do today.
An imperfect body reflects and imperfect person.
Don't eat anything that you'll regret in an hour.
Eat to live, don't live to eat.
What's in the lips today is on the hips tomorrow.
Remeasure, reweight try harder.
Binges
Thats my major issue.
I'm getting better, sort of.
A couple months ago I lost 20 pounds, and then i gained back about 10 pounds of it. Because I couldn't help but stuff my face everyday when i got home from school. I don't know why I did it, I wasn't hungery and I didn't even WANT the food, but I couldn't control it as I shoved the food in so quickly I hardly tasted it. In a single afternoon "snack" onetime i ate: 2 apple muffins, 4 taquitos, a hamburger, two kinds of ice cream, cheese and crackers, chips and dip, steak and 2 Hershey's bars. Then I'd eat dinner when my parents got home. I don't know how I fit it all in. How was there room in me for all of that?!
And just when I'm supposed to be restricting more than ever, I'm falling back into my old habbits of eating, and eating and ... eating. It's not out of comfort, or fear, it's hardly even boredom. It's just the need to chew? Maybe? I can't even explain it.
And I tell myself I won't eat but it seems like every time I look down at my hands there's food in them and I don't even remember getting it, or eating it.
I need help.
I NEED Ana.
I'm getting better, sort of.
A couple months ago I lost 20 pounds, and then i gained back about 10 pounds of it. Because I couldn't help but stuff my face everyday when i got home from school. I don't know why I did it, I wasn't hungery and I didn't even WANT the food, but I couldn't control it as I shoved the food in so quickly I hardly tasted it. In a single afternoon "snack" onetime i ate: 2 apple muffins, 4 taquitos, a hamburger, two kinds of ice cream, cheese and crackers, chips and dip, steak and 2 Hershey's bars. Then I'd eat dinner when my parents got home. I don't know how I fit it all in. How was there room in me for all of that?!
And just when I'm supposed to be restricting more than ever, I'm falling back into my old habbits of eating, and eating and ... eating. It's not out of comfort, or fear, it's hardly even boredom. It's just the need to chew? Maybe? I can't even explain it.
And I tell myself I won't eat but it seems like every time I look down at my hands there's food in them and I don't even remember getting it, or eating it.
I need help.
I NEED Ana.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
500
Breakyfast/Lunch:
1 Light and Fit yogurt -80 calories
5 crackers and cheese- 110 calories
Total: 190
Dindin:
Tuna- 80 calories
Peas- 50 calories
Rice- 120 calories
Total: 250
Desert binge:
Popcorn and chocolate: 300 :/
Day total:
750
1 Light and Fit yogurt -80 calories
5 crackers and cheese- 110 calories
Total: 190
Dindin:
Tuna- 80 calories
Peas- 50 calories
Rice- 120 calories
Total: 250
Desert binge:
Popcorn and chocolate: 300 :/
Day total:
750
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
ElemennoP
ABC diet.
I think I'll start tomorrow. But I've been saying that for three days now and keep binging. But I WILL start tomorrow, so I can finish before school starts.
Here's the plan:
Day 1: 500 calories
Days 2: 500 calories
3: 300
4: 400
5: 100
6: 200
7: 300
8: 400
9: 500
10: Fast
11: 150
12: 200
13: 400
14: 350
15: 250
16: 200
17: Fast
18: 200
19: 100
20: Fast
21: 300
22: 250
23: 200
24: 150
25: 100
26: 50
27: 100
28: 200
29: 200
30: 300
31: 800
32: Fast
33: 250
34: 350
35: 450
36: Fast
37: 500
38: 450
39: 400
40: 350
41: 300
42: 250
43: 200
44: 200
45: 250
46: 200
47: 300
48: 200
49: 150
50: Fast
I think I'll start tomorrow. But I've been saying that for three days now and keep binging. But I WILL start tomorrow, so I can finish before school starts.
Here's the plan:
Day 1: 500 calories
Days 2: 500 calories
3: 300
4: 400
5: 100
6: 200
7: 300
8: 400
9: 500
10: Fast
11: 150
12: 200
13: 400
14: 350
15: 250
16: 200
17: Fast
18: 200
19: 100
20: Fast
21: 300
22: 250
23: 200
24: 150
25: 100
26: 50
27: 100
28: 200
29: 200
30: 300
31: 800
32: Fast
33: 250
34: 350
35: 450
36: Fast
37: 500
38: 450
39: 400
40: 350
41: 300
42: 250
43: 200
44: 200
45: 250
46: 200
47: 300
48: 200
49: 150
50: Fast
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Ana Angels!
This is a new Pro-Ana site to help inspire girls on their quest to be thin. I myself crave Ana and want her to give me a piggy back ride then excalim, "Wow you're light!" But I have a ways to go before i become beautiful.
This blog is to help people with their journey. I'll blog my progress, thinspiration, ideas and support for myself and others to enjoy. You're not alone girlies, and even if their are any men out there. You're hip bones CAN be sharper than your mind, it just takes effort. No pain no gain. Stay strong and stay thin!
This blog is to help people with their journey. I'll blog my progress, thinspiration, ideas and support for myself and others to enjoy. You're not alone girlies, and even if their are any men out there. You're hip bones CAN be sharper than your mind, it just takes effort. No pain no gain. Stay strong and stay thin!
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